After a rough week where one thing after another tried to break me down, I can say I am crushing it in fourth grade. I know it sounds a bit conceited but after the week I went through I think I have a right to be a little proud of myself.
I cannot go into detail about all of the nonsense because a lot of it is quite serious and I don’t feel right to share it with the world. Just know that things are happening in my room that I feel very upset about. It was a tricky week. I tread lightly but also had to come down hard on many things. I am so thankful for all of the people around me who have been so thoughtful and have checked up on me and made sure everything was alright.
My intermediate mentor invited me out with her and a few other teachers and I have to say it was exactly what I needed. I feel like I am finally fitting in and making friends (as cheesy as that sounds). It is really nice to belong and to know so many people want to make sure I doing alright. Things are going well in terms of my own progress. Things are what they are in terms of student behavior that is out of my control. My student teaching mentor and I talked for a long while this afternoon because apparently her last few weeks have been about as wild as mine.
She is so great and can always make me laugh! I feel very lucky to be able to take on this new adventure with so many fantastic people supporting me. I will definitely have to make them all muffins really soon!
This morning and afternoon, I attended staff meeting at the school. When we took a break for lunch, my student teaching mentor teacher asked if I wanted to join her and the other kindergarten teachers I worked with last semester. I said no at first but then agreed because I am trying not to say no when people ask me to do things. I do not want them to think I am boring or stuck up. I want to be friendly and, since I didn’t bring muffins in yet like I did the first official day of student teaching, saying yes to doing things is my only real way of showing that. It was really nice to see everyone again at lunch. They all went over my class list and said I have pretty good kids. It is always nice to hear from my student teaching mentor teacher. She told me about all of the students she saw at meet the teacher night that we had last year.
My room is almost ready! We’ll sort of… Not really… Mom is going to come with me tomorrow so that I can have some help with my still-empty bulletin boards. I did get the word wall done and all of the book numbers have been recorded and put in the correct student’s desk.
There is my word wall. Right now it has just the students’ names but I will put vocab and spelling words and words kids use frequently that they tend to misspell. I almost fell backwards off the counter while putting up the word wall. That would have great to explain! “Oh, by the way I have a concussion because I fell off the counter and can’t work!” Yikes! But I live to fight another day, thank goodness.
I have pretty much made plans for my whole day Monday and part of Tuesday. I just have to redo my literacy stations because I realized I had done too much.
Also, when I went to get a key to get in the building they said I would have to wait until Monday. I am very unhappy about this. A maintenance worker told me he should be around to let me in if I just come find him. I am glad people are looking out for me!
On the way home it rained a little bit. A huge rainbow showed up right in front of me while I was driving. I suppose I will take that as a good sign!
After finishing my latest round of applications, here is where I stand.
15 different positions
14 different schools
12 different districts
5 different grades
2 different states
13 full time positions
2 full time sub positions
3 schools who responded
3 schools who said no thanks
11 schools to hear back from
I made myself a list of all the school districts, school names, grades I applied for, and date I applied on because my brain is starting to get everything all jumbled up. I crossed out the ones who said no. There are seven days until some districts start. A week. Even if I get an interview and get a job, I will have very little time to get my act together. I am mostly terrified. But also hopeful that schools will get it in gear and want to interview me… Hopefully!
I heard back from another school today. The email said thanks but no thanks… Three of eleven schools I have now heard back from. All no. I haven’t even interviewed and I am being told no. Maybe it would not be so bad if I had been asked to interview. I am not sure what I doing wrong!
I texted my cooperation teacher from student teaching again today. She was busy so I did not talk with her much but she did answer my question. I am going to call the school next week and see what they say. I hope I hear something soon. My stress level is through the roof!
Update on my search for a job: I have now applied at ten different schools in nine different school districts in two different states. I have heard back from two schools; both with a “no thanks but keep us in mind for the future.” So basically, no luck yet.
There are two weeks until August first. Some schools start August first. Some a week before that. Some the week after. Not a lot of time left. Considering the fact that the date I set for making decisions passed a week ago, I am not feeling so great about this whole situation. Every day that passes and I am closer and closer to not being a teacher. I spent the past four years working hard and paying loads of money to be the person I want to be and every day the chances of being that person this school year grow smaller. I got good grades. I volunteered working with kids all through school. I worked my butt off student teaching. I substitute taught for a few days. I check several different job posting sites every day, sometimes twice a day. What is left to do but pray?
Eight schools to hear back from in two weeks time. The odds do not seem to be in my favor.
On another note…
I bought supplies to make restroom passes at the Hobby Lobby today. I like making my own stuff because it looks exactly like I want it to and it does not look like anyone else’s. Also it’s cheeper. I got the paper I am going to use for 50% off. I already have some wood and string leftover from other projects so the whole thing is going to cost me less than $5. Pretty good deal especially since I am currently working a slightly-more-than minimum wage job. I will post pictures as soon as the passes are done!
I have officially applied at nine different elementary schools in eight different school districts in two different states. I have heard nothing… It’s great! (I am being sarcastic.) I am not really sure what I doing wrong. I thought through ever answer I gave to every question each application asked and I made good grades in school. I emailed my cooperating teacher and asked her when I should start to panic about not having a job. She conveniently skirted the question. It did make me feel a little better to hear from her. I know I should try not to worry because many people are in the same boat I am but as the first day of school creeps closer, I have to wonder of this is really going to work out for me…
I am worried that I will never get a teaching job and continue working at my part-time, slightly-more-than-minimum-wage job. With nine applications under my belt, I would have thought at least one would contact me. I am definitely nervous that I just spent four years working toward something that will never happen. I guess I got my good 15 weeks in during student teaching. With the way things are going now, that is all the time I will spend teaching in a classroom!
Hello, everybody! My name is Miss Haley and I recently graduated from college. YAY! I graduated with a degree in elementary education and I cannot (absolutely CANNOT) wait to get a job teaching. I currently do not have my own classroom but I hope soon there will be one that is all mine. I just finished my student teaching at a lovely little elementary school in Indiana where I had the very best experience with the very best mentor teacher imaginable (you can read all about my adventures in student teaching through my last blog The View from Student Teaching). Now, I am ready for my own room with my own set of students. I am looking for jobs all over my home state of Indiana as well as my dream state of South Carolina. We will see what happens!
Everyone tells me the first few years of teaching are the hardest and the ones you learn the most during. I can imagine this is absolutely the truth and I hope by writing out my experiences I will learn as much as I can and maybe help others out in the process. I know it is going to be an adventure I will never forget. Come on by here any time and take a look though my classroom window. I hope what you will see is a messy, controlled chaos that means everyone is learning to their fullest potential.